The Biggest Loser

I love the show The Biggest Loser.  I am a faithful watcher of the show and L.O.V.E. to watch the transformation that each player goes through.  I love to watch Bob and Jillian beat the crap out of the contestants.  I love to watch the weigh-ins and see how they do, and to see how far they have come.   I picture myself being one of the contestants on the show.  Something that I would love to do, and may still continue that dream...but...

Along with the watching the show comes some guilt.  I feel bad because I haven't been working out like I should.  I haven't been eating like I should.  I've been doing a lot of what I want to and not what I should be doing.  I get down on myself for not doing what I know needs to be done, which leads me to only digger myself deeper into where I shouldn't be.  Instead of doing something I dwell on the "should of been's, or could of been's".  I can't do that, I get to depressed about how I have failed over and over.  I know that I am a strong person, and can conquer this, it's just that not everything is clicking in my head.  This is just not a physical thing, but a complete mental thing too.  And it's hard, extremely hard.  I'm human and am not perfect.  There are so many things in my life that I want to do, but at the same time I feel like my weight is holding me back.  I don't let it hold me back from doing things (i.e. I don't hide myself in my basement from everyone), but I know what with the weight gone my confidence would soar I would feel like I could conquer the world. To be there someday is my dream.  I can write and talk about it all that I want, but actually acting on what I'm saying is hard.

I don't talk about this much, and in fact tend to bottle all of my emotions up inside, which doesn't help at all. This is hard, and I feel like I am letting so many people down.  I do know that the one factor that I need to include in all of this is God, he's really the only one that can help all of my connections link together and be successful at this.  It's not like I'm no young chicken anymore, and if I want to get married and have kids, I have to do that, for my future husband and family if nothing else.  I want nothing more to be truly happy on the inside and outside and find that person that God has for me in my life, that I can spend forever with.  I need prayers and support, and somedays I get so down that I don't know where to turn.  I will overcome this and I will be successful, I just have to take one.day.at.a.time.

Starbucks deal...

I came across this deal from Starbucks.  If you are a fan, like free things, or want that awesome holiday drink you have to take part in this. From tomorrow until November 21st, between 2-5pm at your local Starbucks you can get a buy 1 get 1 free from a list of delicious holiday drinks!!!!! buy 1 GET 1 FREEEEEEEEEEE!  And they have some yummy choices..Caramel Brulee Latte, Peppermint White Chocolate Mocha, Peppermint Mocha Frappuccino, Peppermint Hot Chocolate and others.

Visit this website and click on "twice as nice" in the bottom right corner to either find your local store, and/or see the whole list of drinks.  I'm not sure if you need to print out the screen, from what it looks like to me they are just holding this at all Starbucks between 2-5, if you want to be safe either call your Starbucks or print the page and bring it in!!! Let me know what you got and how it was!! Enjoy!

Purple

i.love.that purple is the in color this season!  I recently wandered into a ULTA.  I had been in one before, but never really looked at what it had to offer.  This time I perused the whole store and found some wonderful things!

Now I'm a complete girly girl who loves to wear makeup, do my hair, experiment with new things/styles (see Exhibit A (facebook profile picture of new haircut :)) and thinking about the next fun thing I could do (yes, I'm already looking at different haircuts that I might like to try out next time).  I'm pretty sure I was a cosmetologist in a past life.  anyways, moving on.  I have dark brown eyes that I can luckily wear almost any color, and have been wanting to update my makeup collection.  One of my favorite colors to wear is purple, and I found the best eyeliner...ULTA Smokey Eyes Black-Plum Now putting those two colors together was genius and would love to thank the person that did! I love.LOVE. this eye-liner!

Along with this, I picked up a eyeshadow quad, because the makeup happened to be buy 1, get 1 free and this girl loves a good deal!!! I really like the eyeshadow quad too...and imagine this, I bought it with the name "girly girl"...:)

And I have had this product for a while, but I love Maybelline's Pulse Perfection Mascara, now I have always been a Cover Girl (mostly) and Rimmel (every once in a while) mascara person, but thisMaybelline is W.O.N.D.E.R.F.U.L.  I thought it was a stupid concept and unnecessary. was i EVER wrong.  Just the little bit of vibration really helps to separate the lashes and put an even coat on!


Also, I got this rockin' purse at Younkers this weekend!  I haven't carried a "big" purse in a while and have missed it, I love having everything but my front door in one bag! I know it's not the best for your back or shoulder, but I can keep everything in there!!!  Right now if you were to go through my purse you wouldn't find a ton, but give me another week and everything will be packed in!

About a month ago, I was looking/thinking about selling mark. cosmetics.  What better way for me to constantly swap out my makeup bag, but also get it at a discounted rate, AND make extra cash!?!?  Even if it is just enough to put gas in my car each month!  I like that you don't have to have parties or anything like that you can just do catalog sales and even order online and have it shipped to your house!  Plus I would love to sell to other women to help satisfy their inner "girly girl!"